Shall We Pray?

A lot of what has delayed the site comes from my lack of knowing what I want it to be for.
I struggle a lot with doing things purely for fun, though require a point of interest to commit to it which seems to flee and return to me as it wishes to.
As it is, in this moment of writing, I want this place to be a balance of useful media as well as things I enjoy.

Due to the fluctuation in what I enjoy writing about, especially in this new space, I've decided to yap freely while I settle in.

The site itself exists as a way for me to share the things I wish for; if a wish is had, be that a prayer, and a prayer a vow to make it exist.

Though, with that, I continue to feel like there needs to be "more" which is where the normalization comes in, as I get stuck in a "Business website & professionalism" mindset which causes me to cleanse the work of anything that feels "unprofessional".
I like the casualness and want that to be a main draw.

I've also felt discomfort with my want to earn here, mostly because I feel like personal sites are typically made with the goal to get away from the self promo & business-y side of things, for a place to exist and enjoy their time on the web, but truthfully, it is up to the webmaster and I think it comes down to how it's done and if it's authentic.

I don't want to have this place exist purely for income, I want it to be a place for me to fulfill all my creative desires, inspiring me to grow and explore, challenge myself and normalize sharing my creations.

I feel most fulfilled and excited when the focus is on betterment and productivity, basically, I want something to do!

I want something that takes time to work towards.
Making my love of learning, self-critique and problem-solving the partner to the prayers feels like the best trial as that's the bulk of what I scribble about in my journal, I seek a creative release; planning; I want to feel dedicated, devoted, to something.